Did you know, almost 100% of the world's love is held within your very own heart? You are love incarnate, you are every person you have ever met, and they are you, and you will become everyone. There is so little time, so you must make the most of it, and you must place trust where it does not belong. Be naive, be reckless, be too much. Make the first move, take the first bite, become Eve. Know her inside and out, and know exactly why you are here (it is to feel as much and as deeply as you can).
I thought I told you that I don't eat meat anymore? I mean, I never really enjoyed it, always tasted weird, so I never learned to cook with it. Now it's been so long that I get sick when I try, which my father doesn't really appreciate. It just never sat right with me, eating something's flesh. Kind of gross conceptually, but also that cannot be clean? Like, with all the shit, and I mean actual shit, that animals eat, they're bound to get some parasites, hence the mulesing and the drenching and whatnot. I don't like the idea of eating secondhand parasites. Grody to the max! And on top of that, farming is kind of awful. It's not cool to keep things as our own and lock them up like that, and it's not cool to play god and decide when things live and die. Human life isn't worth more than non human life. If it's not weird to eat animals, why is it weird to eat people? Especially after they've already died? Anyways, about meat, I kind of get it if it's one of those pet chicken situations, where they're all loved and appreciated, and then they get old. Like, I think that's just being resourceful, or maybe it counts as some ritual something or rather. Better give it some use in its death than discard it. If you won't give it to the dogs, you may as well eat it yourself. But yeah, no, I'll go home for dinner, don't worry about cooking for me.
You said something to me the other day about how I make all of this stuff, just to give it away. I think you called it a waste of my effort, actually. I don't make things for people to get them to like me, I know that's stupid, I am an avid believer in the sweater curse. To be completely honest with you, it is a lot more selfish than it is selfless. Sure, they go to people, and they're made with people in mind, but that's just so crap doesn't build up on my shelves. If God really is the creator, and I am man, made in his image, what am I supposed to do if not create? The fulfilment one gets from finishing a project, making a concrete thing that you can see and feel and touch, is truly unparalleled. It is what humans were designed to do, down to a chemical level.